First off, I'd like to say sorry for not putting up any stuff, updating, any of that. I just haven't been inspired at all. However last night, I was listening to this beautiful piano music and I finally got the inspiration. And its a little different than my usual style but I thought I would mix it up a little. So I updated it on here and I'd like some criticism/critique. :] I will try my very, very hardest to keep the stuff coming.

On another note, happy new year! Its almost 2009 (just another 8 hours for me) and then its a fresh start. I'm feeling optimistic about the new year and I hope it is even better than 2008 has been.

Keep your eye out for more stuff coming soon.

Much love and a happy new year,
Holly

I'm in a really good mood today. Why, I have no idea. I think that life is finally beginning to go right and that I'm happy with the way my life is at this moment. I love this feeling and I never want it to go away. I think I owe a little of this to my friends for being the best anyone could wish for and for listening to me when I need it.

I don't know what else I really wanted to say here but just that life can be the best thing in the world. Everybody has their bad days but that's just part of it. Everything falls back into place, you just have to wait for it. Live it because you don't know how much longer you have left.

On another note, sorry for not putting up anything new. I've been lacking inspiration but hopefully not for long.

--Holly

So today, my mom finally handed over the purse she had won at her company picnic. lol. She was debating whether or not to give it to me but I won. Its gorgeous. Its a black leather shoulder bag from THE SAK and along with it was a Dooney and Bourke flap wristlet. I'm so happy. The purse is so soft because its real leather and the wristlet is the closest I've ever come to designer anything. So I feel special and a little superficial because I'm writing a journal about purses/accessories. They're awesome though.

Also, one of my friends invited me to her house for swimming and Halo sometime. Not sure when but it'll be fun.
And I know it seems really early to even be thinking about my birthday (December 11), I found out that Twilight is coming out the day after! My mom was telling me about my brother's friend who rented part of a movie theater to watch Iron Man and my mom said maybe I can do that this year because its my sweet sixteen and all that. I hope she says yes. If I do this, though, will anyone come? Those friends that I see everyday, anyway. Sorry all my other watchers. xD

I love Easter. Because of Jesus and also because of........................................


PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahaha. I've eaten so many I'm shaking because of the sugar intake. lolz. And they are BLUE, the best kind!!!!!! Hahahahahaha. Anyway, I'm really on a sugar rush and very hyper. Heehee. I love Easter so much.

I know this is a total cliche-ish type remark and totally teenage angsty but my life sucks.

My dad is dying. I can't do a thing about it. I see his pain, I hear it in his voice, I see it in his every move. And I can't do a damn thing about it.

I'm overweight and a loser. That's one hell of a combination.

I have no life.

The only thing I'm good at is school. And writing. Where is that going to get me?

Especially when I won't have enough money to attend a college I actually want to go to because my family has no money.

I hate myself so much. I can't stand the sight of myself. And I want so much for something and I don't even know what the fuck it is I want.

Someone rescue me from my life.